Some Scrapbooking...

Painting again...

I am trying to find things I used to love and use my creative side again. I haven't painted in years! Other than the graffiti I did a while back. I haven't done oils since...ummmm...college!

So here is my first attempts at painting again! There will be one more in the series but I'm excited to share! They are on 8x8 canvas'

Scrapbooking life...

Well, I am finding scrapbooking is a hard thing to do sometimes when your heart is broken. It may heal your heart but it sometimes brings you down a path you are not always ready for, or think you are ready for.

I started scrapbooking again after being separated and divorced for almost a year now. After 17 years of marriage, there is a new, different dynamic to my life which is strange to capture in my scrapbooking. The presence of my ex-husband is no longer in the photos and it is just my kids and I. Hummmm...a somewhat strange concept for me to grasp.

But, it feels good to scrapbook again. To let my creative juices flow and not think about it, just let it happen as it always has for me. I know many of my friends have envied my ability to just let the creativity flow, but it has been missing for a long time...so I cherish my creativity again and embrace it whole heartedly!

For several months I have had a special someone in my life along with his two beautiful children, whom I have grown to love very much. We spent lots of time together creating wonderful memories for both myself and my children. I took pictures and started to scrapbook them, hopeful that they would be in our lives forever. Unfortunately, this is the path that I may not be ready to go down yet, since we just broke up and my heart is completely broken and hurting terribly right now.

How do I deal with these memories? These scrapbook pages I have created? The photos I have taken and memories that looking back are so painful because we were so happy and hopeful.

So maybe I should share, as sharing and opening up usually helps? Maybe it is wrong, but I guess I a work in progress and these are some of the stepping stones to healing and growing myself.